Saturday, September 09, 2006

i had a silly dream, but it shows the extent of how much i miss home. after like 6wks of being away from home, i guess the homesick-ness kicks in again.

so the dream goes like this.

one fine day i decide to go sleep with the fred perry bag kaiqi got me for farewell on me, which i have no idea why i made this decision but apparently with the bag on me i managed to go back Singapore without the need of a plane. i just popped out of nowhere in 925 and everyone i know, those which i can still remember now is like kaiqi meiting kailin and even eugene and weilun was shopping at some bakua stall in the vicinity, and my family was there also eating shun kuey from the hokkien mee kopitiam.

i was also shocked how that fred perry bag managed to bring me back den i rem thinking to myself in my dream that i was very happy because i had a wonderbag like Doraemon. then they were all shell shocked to see me and then we had a very nice meal of bakua and soon kueh. then after that i looked at my watch and i told them i need to go for anatomy lecture already but then i start to panick because i don't know how to go back to adelaide then i remember asking zhaoyan to lend me money to buy one way air tic back.

then kaiqi came up with the brilliant idea of asking me to sleep with the fred perry bag again, while thinking very hard of going back to adelaide. so i lie down on the floor near the 925 kopitiam and i went to sleep and walaa i came back to adelaide.

then i was so excited i told kimberly about it but she did not believe that i went back singapore to eat soon kuey and bakua she wants proof. so i went back to singapore and got her a box of soonkuey.

then when she saw the box of soonkuey she was so happy to see the soonkuey of yishun that she gobbled the soonkuey and even drank the whole packet of the veryhotchillisauce they give. then after that she look at the small little plastic bowl which held the chilli sauce, and then on the plastic bowl there was a inscription that writes 'Yishun', then she exclaims loudly omg you really went back to yishun!see here writes 'yishun'!

den i woke up. i want to eat bakua and soonkuey now.

its one thing to think that you are missed and another thing to know that you are missed. the latter beats everything hands down. its not just say say miss, but really miss that type. those random suddenly out of nowhere just miss type. not those big events that make u miss the person type, its those small daily activities miss type.

i know its totally mushy and emo and corny but who cares, your dajie misses you too.
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just like ytd when i saw the purple flowers hanging outside my townhouse i wonder how kaiqi will react if she sees those. just like that day when we were talking about noisy drunks and i remembered how terrified kailin was when i stuffed chips into her mouth in drunken stupor. just like when my friend asks me to go for the 15km run i was reminded of angel. small little ways.
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and just to seek some opinions on a sensitive issue. but then again, i decide against it because this blog is not that private anymore to have opinions of a very sensitive issue. downside downside. but i do want some opinions. some discussion. some views. something to tell me that i am normal to feel that way. tmd feel constipated lo, want to say but cannot say. please enlighten me shifu!
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and i realised i can get muscular very easily, so much so that it is scaring me. i know i am wonderwoman, but the wonderwoman i remember seeing on tv has more boobs than muscles so why not let those boobs develop before those muscles pop up. puhhleazze.