Friday, April 21, 2006

so much stuff happened within the span of this few days that really transformed the way i look at people. I have always dealt people with trust, but it turned out that i was the idiot of the day.the week.the year. Its a blessing and also a curse that i have never met a backstabber in the 20 years of my life before, be it that i have been ignorant of any backstabbing or that i am lucky to steer clear of such filth. to deal with a situation where betrayal occurs is completely new to me and i was at a complete loss.

The pain of having to know who betrayed you and the inability to stay away from the person must be one of the most terrible thing that can happen, besides migraine and constipation. The thought of having to be close to someone whom u can never trust and you know it in ur blood ur bone ur guts that this person is going to make u fall badly one day just sucks.

theft happened as well in this so called safe home of mine, and my 400 bucks was just gone like that. some stinky thief went inside my room and stole my rent. i hope the thief rots in hell.

the thought of having to face so many aminosities and hypocrisy and blah blah makes me want to call it quits forget about everything and go back home. I miss my comfort zone. i miss all the kind faces and true hearts. But this was the experience i wanted since i chose this path i guess. Angie's right. i will just have to stick through it and pray that nothing kills me in the end. I will become stronger and fight all those shitheads and shit stirrers and i shall emerge victoriously. Damn you shitheads.

but nevertheless, i am getting the support i need from my sunny island. Meiting made me cry and then den laugh like crazy in 5 minutes. Zhihao made me smile for the whole day. Angie make me long for winter to come where i can get to see her. My sister fashioned some ridiculous way for me to catch the thief.my dad offered to send me more money.my mum thinking of coming over to visit me. for those who were not free, its ok, i still love you guys anyway. Thanks all. You all made everything shitty worthwhile.