Thursday, July 28, 2005
Well,I am feeling depressed this few days.My depression came after knowing the possiblity of incurring huge expenses in Australia.Initially,I really never thought that I would be short of cash there.But ever since the search of my hostel that day,i am like totally FREAKED out.I should have saved up at least a few thousand dollars since I started working.But as I check my bank account,my last cash deposit was in April while I was still in NUH.Before that,my withdrawals were MORE than my deposits.Ok nvm..But after i started tuitioning,I should safely have about $800 per month.But the sad thing is I never bothered to cash in my fees.I never even keep track of what I spend!Whatever I have in my wallet I just use and use.I am freaking ashamed of myself.
A few days back my mum actually asked me how much I had saved.I took out the bills I had in my piggybank.It only amounted to $1000!Very little right!I am so disappointed in myself!!!!
I have so many essentials I need to pay for,including my new insurance(worth 100K).the reason why I bought such an expensive insurance,I shall elaborate it next time.I still need to pay for my laptop,and my air tickets to Australia this December to check out the hostels personally.I still need to pay for my piano fees(one min-$1,u do the math).I am also pretty sure I would not have enough money to spend after paying for the expensive hostel.So that is why I would need to save up for my living expenses there.
A broke woman = a sad woman
I cannot possibly ask my parents for money.My dad's business is dying and most of my mother's money goes to paying insurance's premiums(my mum is a fan of insurance,she saves up by them,not through the bank).On the other hand,I should actually help them to pay for my 2 sisters' stuff.
How hOw hoW???
I reckon I just have to be frugal and get more jobs.After my piano exam in September I shall get a part time job in the morning.I do not need to think of going scuba or whatever shit le.I can kiss them goodbye..
Life is bleak.
flabbyarms thought hard on 12:12 PM.
